Downhill. Everything has gotten worse since last I posted, I'm sorry to report. I've been really sick, missing a lot of work, which hits hard financially, and also had a sexual assault by a friend who was staying with us temporarily since he moved out here from Texas. I've been handling that okay, I think, but the stress of it and all the emotions gave me an ulcer and can't be helping the other things. I'm coming up on the anniversary of the worst times in my life, the hospital last year, my cousin's suicide, etc, on top of the yearly Seasonal Affective Depression. Holy shit. I feel maxed out in every way and out of reserves. I can't say I have ever felt this low and run down. It's like I'm playing a really hard video game and all my health/power bars are down to almost nothing. Really. To Nothing. So I have decided to concentrate as hard as I can and play this game to win, without distraction. I am taking time off w...